Wow... I can't even believe this. I'd almost forgotten this blog thing even existed! I went back and read over everything I've written here, and I couldn't help but laugh at how much I've changed. A lot has happened over the last two years, a lot fewer concerts, a lot fewer music critiques, but a lot more laughter, joy, and peace.
I returned home from serving an 18 month mission for the LDS church just less than two months ago. I know, I know, everyone says it's the "best two years," that it changed their lives, that they'd go back in a heartbeat... and yes. It's all true. It's been jaw-dropping for me to take a look inside myself and slowly begin to realize how much I have honestly changed. It's not that I felt I was a bad person before or anything, I know deep down I was a good girl wanting to do good things, but I feel like vices and habits and things I'd just get stuck in have been slowly burnt away. I feel ready to take on the world. My heart has been changed.
One of the strangest things was to come home and realize my desire to listen to certain types of music or watch movies or TV shows that had entertained me before the mission had dwindled to basically nothing. I started to reintroduce myself to music and the world by putting my iPod on shuffle. There were some happy moments of "Oh! I forgot how much I love this song!" and a lot of "why on earth did I ever listen to this...?" I found that where before I would've been content to close myself in my room listening to music and searching out the next unknown band I would attach myself to, instead I wanted to be close to people I love and spend as much time with them as possible.
That's not to say music has fallen off the radar for me, it is still my greatest form of stress relief and food for the soul, it's just... different. And I like it. I'm a different person, with different desires and passions, with a different priority. I hope I never stop changing.
And for your listening pleasure, one of the cutest songs ever written; it's been stuck in my head for days! Enjoy!
